It is near the end…I can see it! My students can see it as well. I should say this is my face while doing my new course build. It isn’t though, I am actually excited about this course. It has been so long since I have gotten to teach Composition.
Anyway…the end is in sight. As, I am coming to a close in this semester, as always I am reflective. What worked, what didn’t. Well, lots didn’t this time. I feel like more didn’t than did. Which, as a teacher isn’t always a bad thing. Just because it didn’t work, does not mean they didn’t learn something, it means that you have the chance to do it differently and make it better.
I am going to use writing. I have never liked to teach outcome based writing. Yet, that is what I have done all year. Mostly because I thought, why not give it a shot. I suck at it. I know that and I am pretty sure they know that. So, knowing that makes me know what I can change and how I can do it differently. I teach development or basic writing. How in the world am I going to teach process writing? I don’t have that answer yet. I will have it, and it is going to take some serious work and effort on my part. That face above. I bet I make it lots.
Do I feel like my students are writing better in spite of the fact that I suck at outcome based writing. Yes, they are. I know they are. Am I maybe being to hard on myself? Probably. In teaching, you have to be patient with yourself and know when to push yourself harder. In this case I need to push harder.
This profession is a double edged sword. In spite of the fact that it exhausts me, I find myself through my profession. This is what I do and who I am. What drives me is my students. The students who learn in spite of all the obstacles placed in their roads. The students who want to learn, who want to be part of the what it is to be a college student. The student-athlete who remembers that they are a student first. The student who dares to dream. That is what makes me come back for more. That is what makes me smile in August and in April.